Wednesday, November 30, 2005

My daily wish will never become true

My daily wish will never become true

My daily wish is to see you smile, know you are happy & feel you are loved. I know that life is not easy. So I am here to remind you life is beautiful when somebody cares.

Receiver reply:
Life is not beautiful. I am not loved. No one cares for me. Your wish will never come true. I don't smile everyday. My life is meaningless.

I will bang my head on the wall.

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

My life as a

Dedicated to Aw Yeang Tze Ling
My life as a TV set

Before you came into my life:
My life is black and white,
My life is mono,
My life is dull.

After you came into my life:
My life is full of color,
My life is in stereo sound (where applicable),
My life is exciting.

My life as a gem stone
Before you came into my life:
I just an ordinary stone,
Buried deep in the ground down under,
I have so many flaws.

After you came into my life:
I am carved into a sparkling gem,
Put on display in an elegant jewelry store,
Shining bright and flawless.

Relationship is so complicated

Relationship is so complicated
- a relation between people; (`relationship' is often used where `relation' would serve, as in `the relationship between inflation and unemployment', but the preferred usage of `relationship' is for human relations or states of relatedness); "the relationship between mothers and their children"
- a state of connectedness between people (especially an emotional connection); "he didn't want his wife to know of the relationship"
- a state involving mutual dealings between people or parties or countries
- kinship: (anthropology) relatedness or connection by blood or marriage or adoption

Ever wonder why so many people are still single in their late 30's or 40's. Is it they busy with work till no time for dating? Is it they can't find their Mr. Right or Miss right? Is it they don't trust the relationship thing?

Sometimes I also don't trust the relationship thing, because it is complicated, ever changing. Simply put dynamic and unpredictable.

Is meeting each other daily a good idea? I can't comment on it. Even I also facing problem. Most of the time, the failure of a relationship is because of communication problem. Without proper communication, most people will be single till they rest in peace. With proper communication, even a young boy can marry to a woman who is 3 times his age. (If they can play deaf to the comments from the public)

If I were asked to make a comparison between life long partner and part time partner. I would say that being temporary does release you from all the responsibilities and commitment, something that most people are scared of. You can have more choices as people come and go out of your life. This kind of explains why many people have multiple partner or changing partner so fast.

Life long means for life, unless you plan for a divorce in the middle. To achieve life long, you need commitment, responsibilities, initiative and a lot of patient. Now let's see what the reward is, you will have kids, a lot of time to relax when is old. Get to play with your grand son, sense of achievement. Now you have your own family, something that you can be proud of.

Limp Bizkit - Behind Blue Eyes

But my dreams they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what its like
To feel these feelings
Like I do and I blame you!
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through

No one knows what its like
To be mistreated, to be defeated

No one knows how to say
That they're sorry

You live you learn

You live you learn
You ask you learn, you agonize you learn. You advice you learn.
You bleed you learn. You burned you learn. You brag you learn.
You cry you learn. You choke you learn. You choose you learn
You doped you learn. You duped you learn. You dissatisfied you learn.
You eliminated you learn. You electrocuted you learn.
You flame you learn. You faint you learn. You fell you learn.
You grieve you learn. You give you learn. You guess you learn.
You hate you learn. You hesitate you learn. You hemorrhage you learn.
You investigate you learn. You interrogate you learn. You invent you learn.
You joke you learn. You jobless you learn.
You kill you learn. You keen you learn.
You live you learn. You loose you learn. You laugh you learn. You love you learn
You mobbed you learn. You milked you learn. You mix you learn.
You nabbed you learn. You naked you learn. You nuke you learn
You oppose you learn. You object you learn. You organize you learn.
You pray you learn. You perverted you learn. You pissed you learn.
You question you learn. You queue you learn.
You retarded you learn. You reminded you learn.
You scream you learn. You spy you learn. You suffer you learn.
You talk you learn. You throw you learn.
You underestimate you learn. You undermine you learn.
You violate you learn. You vomit you learn.
You whacked you learn. You wet you learn.
You Xerox you learn. You x-rayed you learn.
You yell you learn. You yield you learn.
You zigzag you learn. You zippered you learn.


It is not that I don't want to join you all; it is not that I am not sociable; it is not that I dislike you all.

I trust you all, I will support you all when you need support, and I will do my best and help when you all need me. I am a player in a team.

The problem is you all don't trust me. Someone told you all some story about me and you all buy it, thus making me the most not welcome member in the team.

I don't blame them, some people like office politics and they would do anything if you were not the same 'gang' as them. Some people would do anything to survive. Anyway people are selfish in some way.

I know it is hard to be appreciated by others and I don't want anything from you all. If I want respect and trust from you all, I will earn it myself. This is the correct way.

However you no need to worry so much about me. As a contractor, my task is to contribute to Motorola; I was paid to work here. And I will devote myself to the task assigned to me and not cause any trouble to you.

Trust in sociology is a relationship between people. It involves the suspension of disbelief that one person will have towards another person or idea. It especially involves having one person thinking that the other person or idea is benevolent, competent / good, or honest / true.

Monday, November 28, 2005

[relationship] These are the types that GENERALLY turn women off

These are the types that GENERALLY turn women off.
Unsuccessful Archetypes:
- Hippie (Careless about grooming and clothing)
- Nerd (Not socially educated or charming)
- Redneck ('nuff said)
- Prejudice, Ignorant and Proud (again, speaks for itself)
- Insecure and Needy (Clingy and smothering physically and emotionally)
- Afraid man (Won't take risks in life and go for it)
- Mommy's boy (Needs mom's approval for everything, won't grow up)
- Argument man (Argues with everything all the time)
- Unattractive on purpose (This can work if you like women who are the same)

[relationship] The Eight Personality Types of Men Who Are Successful With Women

The Eight Personality Types of Men Who Are Successful With Women

Lover Personalities:
1. Bad Boy (danger) Someone who's dangerous and thrilling to be around.
2. Adventurer (fun) Someone who's fun and exciting to be around.
3. Seducer (sex) Someone who is sensual and sexy and makes her feel sexy.
4. Artist (Musician, Poet) (emotion) Someone who moves her emotions and is enigmatic and complex.

Provider Personalities:
5. Successful Guy (means) Someone who provides a great lifestyle and stability.
6. Daddy (control) Someone who tells her what to do and controls her.
7. Regular Guy (loyalty) Someone who is down to earth, loyal and stable.
8. Ass Kissing Guy (her boy) Someone who gives her whatever she wants.

[tech] Some november tips and tricks

Want to know how much your CPU consumes power?
100w? 200w? 300w?
You can do so now with the below link

Want to bench mark your hard disk? Or plan to get another high performance hard disk? Check the link below

To tweak up your sluggish broadband speed (Windows XP)
Start -> Run -> type gpedit.msc -> Local Computer Policy -> Administrative Templates -> Network -> QOS Packet Scheduler on left window -> Limit Reservable Bandwidth -> Setting tab -> select Enable -> set Bandwidth Limit % to '0'-> Reboot.

[tech] Solutions to ''Slow System Startup''

This list is "Designed for Windows XP", although I didn't receive the logo.... :-)

1. Defrag your hard drive. Use the built in XP defragmenter (dfrg.msc). It's the only one that properly optimizes your system's prefetching to speed up boot time.

2. Go to Microsoft's website and download BootVis.exe. It will optimize your prefetching even further than the built in defragmenter. Use both to get the best results: dfrg.msc first, then BootVis.exe->Tools menu->Optimize. Also, you can use it to benchmark your boot time before and after system tweaks and software installations.

3. Go to Start->Run... and type or paste "Rundll32.exe advapi32.dll,ProcessIdleTasks". This will start a built in optimization routine that runs in the System Idle Process and shows up as "rundll32.exe" in task manager. It normally runs automatically every 3 days. It will run for 15 mins to half an hour, so don't try to do anything too intensive while it's running. If you get sick of it running, you should probably log off or restart to be safe, rather than killing the process.

4. Delete anything that you don't need in the Start->Programs->Startup folder, and in the Registry under HKLM->Software->Microsoft->Windows->Run and HKCU->Software->Microsoft->Windows->Run.

5. Go to Start->Control Panel->Administrative Tools->Services or go to Start->Run... and type "services.msc" to display services running on your machine. About 1/3 should be automatic, 1/3 should be manual, and 1/3 should be disabled, IMHO. If you don't know which to change, search google for "XP services" and read one of the many WebPages that describe each service.

6. Use a partition manager to create a separate partition for your swap-file. Set its size to about 2.5 times the amount of physical RAM you have. You can do this by right-clicking my computer and selecting Properties->Advanced tab->Performance section->Settings button->Advanced tab again->Virtual Memory section->Change button. Whew! They don't make that one easy to get to. Just don't completely remove your swap file, because your system might not boot after that, unless you have a lot of physical RAM.

7. Repeat steps 1-3.
Ideally, XP on a clean install should boot in about 12 seconds from the time that you see the XP logo to useable (can open a program). With all my device drivers and third-party utilities, the best I can acheive so far is 18 seconds on my Dell. Don't use Norton SpeedDisk!--It may slow your XP system boot time by about 6 seconds.
I have messed around with this a lot, to say the least, and I plan to build some utilities to make it easier and give them away for free in the future. Wish I had a web address to post here, but I'll be around here in the future, so check back in this discussion forum if you are really interested, or look for my utilities in the next few months on in the Utilities section.
Good luck, Ben

Solutions to ''Slow System Startup''
Friday, January 3, 2003 at 1:51 pm
Posted by Ben

Friday, November 25, 2005

Guilty Conscience - EMINEM

"Guilty Conscience"
(feat. Dr. Dre)

[sound of static]

Meet Eddie, twenty-three years old.
Fed up with life and the way things are going,
he decides to rob a liquor store.
("I can't take this no more, I can't take it no more homes")
But on his way in, he has a sudden change of heart.
And suddenly, his conscience comes into play...
("Shit is mine, I gotta do this.. gotta do this")

[Dr. Dre]
Alright, stop! (Huh?)
Now before you walk in the door of this liquor store
and try to get money out the drawer
You better think of the consequence (But who are you?)
I'm your motherfuckin conscience

That's nonsense!
Go in and gaffle the money and run to one of your aunt's cribs
And borrow a damn dress, and one of her blonde wigs
Tell her you need a place to stay
You'll be safe for days if you shave your legs with Renee's razor blade

[Dr. Dre]
Yeah but if it all goes through like it's supposed to
The whole neighborhood knows you and they'll expose you
Think about it before you walk in the door first
Look at the store clerk, she's older than George Burns

Fuck that! Do that shit! Shoot that bitch!
Can you afford to blow this shit? Are you that rich?
Why you give a fuck if she dies? Are you that bitch?
Do you really think she gives a fuck if you have kids?

[Dr. Dre]
Man, don't do it, it's not worth it to risk it! (You're right!)
Not over this shit (Stop!) Drop the biscuit (I will!)
Don't even listen to Slim yo, he's bad for you
(You know what Dre? I don't like your attitude..)

[sound of static]

("It's alright c'mon, just come in here for a minute")
("Mmm, I don't know!")
("Look baby..")
("Yo, it's gonna be alright, right?")
("Well OK..")

Meet Stan, twenty-one years old. ("Give me a kiss!")
After meeting a young girl at a rave party,
things start getting hot and heavy in an upstairs bedroom.
Once again, his conscience comes into play... ("Shit!")

Now listen to me, while you're kissin her cheek
and smearin her lipstick, I slipped this in her drink
Now all you gotta do is nibble on this little bitch's earlobe..
(Yo! This girl's only fifteen years old
You shouldn't take advantage of her, that's not fair)
Yo, look at her bush.. does it got hair? (Uh huh!)
Fuck this bitch right here on the spot bare
Til she passes out and she forgot how she got there
(Man, ain't you ever seen that one movie _Kids_?)
No, but I seen the porno with SunDoobiest!
(Shit, you wanna get hauled off to jail?)
Man fuck that, hit that shit raw dawg and bail..

[sound of static]
[pickup idling, radio playing]

Meet Grady, a twenty-nine year old construction worker.
After coming home from a hard day's work,
he walks in the door of his trailer park home
to find his wife in bed with another man.

[Dr. Dre]
Alright calm down, relax, start breathin..

Fuck that shit, you just caught this bitch cheatin
While you at work she's with some dude tryin to get off?!
FUCK slittin her throat, CUT THIS BITCH'S HEAD OFF!!!

[Dr. Dre]
Wait! What if there's an explanation for this shit?
(What? She tripped? Fell? Landed on his dick?!)
Alright Shady, maybe he's right Grady
But think about the baby before you get all crazy

Okay! Thought about it, still wanna stab her?
Grab her by the throat, get your daughter and kidnap her?
That's what I did, be smart, don't be a retard
You gonna take advice from somebody who slapped DEE BARNES??!

[Dr. Dre]
What'chu say? (What's wrong? Didn't think I'd remember?)
I'ma kill you motherfucker!

Uhhh-aahh! Temper temper!
Mr. Dre? Mr. N.W.A.?
Mr. AK comin' straight outta Compton y'all better make way?
How in the fuck you gonna tell this man not to be violent?

[Dr. Dre]
Cause he don't need to go the same route that I went
Been there, done that.. aw fuck it...
What am I sayin? Shoot em both Grady, where's your gun at?

[gun fires, is cocked, and re-fired]

SHARING: Enhancing Relationships

SHARING: Enhancing Relationships
TRUST is a very important factor for all relationships. When trust is broken, it is the end of the relationship. Lack of trust leads to suspicion, suspicion generates anger, anger causes enmity and enmity may result in separation.

A telephone operator told me that one day she received a phone call. She answered, "Public Utilities Board." There was silence. She repeated, "PUB." There was still no answer. When she was going to cut off the line, she heard a lady's voice, "Oh, so this is PUB. Sorry, I got the number from my Husband's pocket but I do not know whose number it is."

Without mutual trust, just imagine what will happen to the couple if the telephone operator answered with just "hello" instead of "PUB".

A man asked his father-in-law, "Many people praised you for a successful marriage. Could you please share with me your secret?"
The father-in-law answered in a smile, "Never criticize your wife for her shortcomings or when she does something wrong. Always bear in mind that because of her shortcomings and weaknesses, she could not find a better husband than you."

We all look forward to being loved and respected. Many people are afraid of losing face. Generally, when a person makes a mistake, he would look around to find a scapegoat to point the finger at. This is the start of a war. We should always remember that when we point one finger at a person, the other four fingers are pointing at ourselves.

If we forgive the others, others will ignore our mistake too.

A person visited the government matchmaker for marriage, SDU, and requested "I am looking for a spouse. Please help me to find a suitable one." The SDU officer said, "Your requirements, please." "Oh, good looking, polite, humorous, sporty, knowledgeable, and good in singing and dancing. Willing to accompany me the whole day at home during my leisure hour, if I don't go out. Telling me interesting stories when I need companion for conversation and be silent when I want to rest." The officer listened carefully and replied, "I understand you need television."

There is a saying that a perfect match can only be found between a blind wife and a deaf husband, because the blind wife cannot see the faults of the husband and the deaf husband cannot hear the nagging of the wife. Many couples are blind and deaf at the courting stage and dream of perpetual perfect relationship. Unfortunately, when the excitement of love wears off, they wake up and discover that marriage is not a bed of roses. The nightmare begins.

Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another, or demands too much. People in love tend to think that love will conquer all and their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage. Actually, this is not the case. There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character."

It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing the spouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness.

It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations..

There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "A speech will either prosper or ruin a nation." Many relationships break off because of wrong speech. When a couple is too close with each other, we always forget mutual respect and courtesy. We may say anything without considering if it would hurt the other party.

A friend and her millionaire husband visited their construction site. A worker who wore a helmet saw her and shouted," I, Emily! Remember me? We used to date in the secondary school." On the way home, her millionaire husband teased her, "Luckily you married me. Otherwise you will be the wife of a construction worker." She answered,"You should appreciate that you married me. Otherwise, he will be the millionaire and not you."

Frequently exchanging these remarks plants the seed for a bad relationship. It's like a broken egg - cannot be reversed.

Different people have different perception. One man's meat could be another man's poison. A couple bought a donkey from the market. On the way home, a boy commented, "Very stupid. Why neither of them rides on the donkey?" Upon hearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey. He walked besides them. Later, an old man saw it and commented, "The husband is the head of family. How can the wife ride on the donkey while the husband is on foot?" Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let the husband ride on the donkey.

Further on the way home, they met an old Lady. She commented, "How can the man ride on the donkey but let the wife walk. He is no gentleman."
The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey. Then, they met a young man. He commented, "Poor donkey, how can you hold up the weight of two persons. They are cruel to you." Hearing that, the husband and wife immediately climbed down from the donkey and carried it on their shoulders.

It seems to be the only choice left. Later, on a narrow bridge, the donkey was frightened and struggled. They lost their balance and fell into the river. You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn you. Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future.

Thus, do not be too bothered by others words if our conscience is clear..

This is a true story which happened in the States. A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, and hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital.

Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, "Daddy, I'm sorry about your truck." Then he asked, "But when are my fingers going to grow back?" The father went home & committed Suicide.

Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired... Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't. Too often we fail to recognize the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge.

People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

[relationship] Attributes women loath

Men who seek women's validation:
Women hate men who need their acceptance or validation. I used to be this sort of man. I used to worry about getting validation from a woman--'is she going to like the place I am taking her?' etc.
This is a huge women repeller.
Instead, women enjoy a man strong enough to get validation in other ways besides through her.

Men who have a weak sense of reality:
This is similar to men who seek validation from women. This is a man who is unsure of himself and unsure in his beliefs about the world. So if you are the sort of man who does not have a sense of what acceptable behavior from women is, or does not have his own sense of what is important to him, or does not have his own sense of what is cool and uncooI, you are in trouble.
Furthermore, if you are the sort of man who has a sense of these things but feels intimidated to assert them to women, you are in trouble.
If a man is weak and let's a woman or other people define these things for him, she will loose interest.
Put simply, women are attracted to men who can think for themselves and are assertive about what they think and like. And not being able to think for you or be assertive is a huge women repeller.

So if this is a problem for you, you need to start working on being the sort of man who has standards, has his own take on the world, knows what he likes, and has the guts to let other people know what these things are.

[relationship] Qualities of men - Prize?

Some of the qualities of men who are the PRIZE are:

1. Taking a strong lead
2. Having Standards
3. Making her come into your world
4. Making her accommodate you
5. Being challenging
6. Having a sense of humor
7. Being vulnerable
8. Displaying costly signals
9. Being comfortable with yourself
10. Being a Dandy
11. Being a Rake
12. Being a Coquette

[relationship] How to loose a woman?

How to loose a woman?

Women will often times try to take control of the lead to test how sure of himself a man is. If they discover that he is unsure of himself or has a weak sense of self, they will often times run the other way or walk all over him. Nonetheless, this is a sure way to loose a woman.

The Bad Guy Notice

I got this from a book I was reading, thought it was funny.

The Bad Guy Notice:
This book is copyright 2001, with all rights reserved. It is illegal to copy, distribute, or create derivative works from this book in whole or in part, or to contribute to the copying, distribution, or creating of derivative works of this book.

When you purchased this book, you agreed to the statement on the bottom of the homepage of my website that stated:

"©2001, All Rights Reserved. If you try to copy, steal, or distribute all or any part of my book or this web page without permission, I will have my attorney contact you and make you wish that you'd never had such a stupid idea in your life. Count on it. By purchasing this book, you agree to the following: You understand that the information contained on this page and in this book is an opinion, and it should be used for personal entertainment purposes only. You are responsible for your own behavior, and none of this book is to be considered legal or personal advice."

Uniform is same style of clothing.

Uniform is same style of clothing.

A uniform is a set of standard clothing worn by members of an organization whilst participating in that organization's activity. People performing religious activities have often worn standard costumes since the dawn of recorded history. Other early examples of uniforms include the clothing of the armies of the Roman Empire and other civilizations.

Too bad I was too sleepy to notice that I didn't wear uniform to work today. I only manage to notice it when I saw a motorcyclist wearing the uniform driving pass me (I am a slow and cautious driver), I was thinking "Hey, that guy is working in same factory as me." Then I was looking at myself, "where is my uniform?? I am in a hot soup." Kind of panic, I slow down and try to figure a way to overcome this. I got 3 options

1. Drive back to my house and get the uniform. But I will get stuck in traffic jam for 1 or 2 hour and late for work.
2. Go to office wearing casually as I am now. Got a meeting later, so the risk is I will get a scolding from my supervisor. Not to mention all those weird stare at my casual cloths from other co worker.
3. Telephone and try to borrow uniform from my colleague nearby.

3 seems like a good idea except most of them are still sleeping at the moment (7.30am in the morning). What should I do?
Choices and more choices… I might as well drive to where they stay and wait there.

Maybe I got luck today, finally manage to borrow a uniform from them and I got this opportunity to write this in my blog now.
Below is what my uniform looks like, however the guy in picture is not me, I just found it from the Internet.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Positive thinking

Positive thinking is like this:

"A little bird in the sky,
You look up and it shits in your eye.
You don't mind and you don't cry.
You just thank GOD that cows don't fly. "

Attitude is a key concept in social psychology. In academic psychology parlance, attitudes are positive or negative views of an "attitude object": a person, behaviour, or event. Research has shown that people can also be "ambivalent" towards a target, meaning that they simultaneously possess a positive and a negative attitude towards it.

[relationship] How to cope with break up?

I was wondering, how do some or all of you cope with break up? And what about all those uncertain relationship, complicated yet no remedy relationship.

Did some research and I manage to find some book about it. It’s not that comprehensive but at least the book would be useful for some of you out there. Below are 3 books that you can expect to find in most of the bookshelf in your regular bookstore.

# He's Just Not That Into You: The No-Excuses Truth to Understanding Guys by Greg Behrendt

# He's Just Not That Into You : Your Daily Wake-up Call by Greg Behrendt

# He's Just Not That into You: 2006 Day to Day Calendar by Greg Behrendt

But I would like to recommend the following book.

It's Called a Breakup Because It's Broken : The Smart Girl's Break-Up Buddy
by Greg Behrendt, Amiira Ruotola-Behrendt

Their book includes Seven Commandments. Here are three of them:

Don't see him or talk to him for 60 days: "It's the same thing as breaking an addiction, Greg Behrendt said. "You wouldn't ask an alcoholic to dry out in a bar. Get away from the person who will ultimately bring you the most amount of pain for 60 days to get perspective."

Get yourself a breakup buddy: "Again, very much like a sponsor in AA," Greg Behrendt said. "You're going to use your friend, right? Let's make it official. Don't wear out your friendship. Don't overload your friends. Make it official. Make it a thing you're doing together. Say, 'Listen. I need your help. When I go to a bar, I want you to take my phone. I want to call you instead of him. When I go to return his stuff, you take it instead of me.' And the break-up buddy says, 'We only talk about it an hour.' "

Get rid of his stuff and the things that remind you of him: "I'm not saying burn it," Ruotola-Behrendt said. "Although, if that helps you, that's your prerogative. But we say to make three boxes: one for the memories you'd like to hang on to for later; stuff that goes back to him in the second box; and then trash in the third." She advises giving the first and second to the break-up buddy, "so later you can decide and you can get it back."

The above is just a glimpse of that is inside the book. Now I am waiting my hands to get hold of one copy in local book store.

[relationship] The Best Break-Up Letter

Dear Susan :

I know the counsellor said we shouldn't contact each other during our "cooling off" period, but I couldn't wait anymore. The day you left, I swore I'd never talk to you again. But that was just the wounded little boy in me talking. Still, I never wanted to be the first one to make contact.

In my fantasies, it was always you who would come crawling back to me. I guess my pride needed that. But now I see that my pride's cost me a lot of things. I'm tired of pretending I don't miss you. I don't care about looking bad anymore. I don't care who makes the first move as long as one of us does. Maybe it's time we let our hearts speak as loudly as our hurt. And this is what my heart says...

"There's no one like you, Susan." I look for you in the eyes and breasts of every woman I see, but they're not you. They're not even close. Two weeks ago, I met this girl at Ithaca Bar and brought her home with me. I don't say this to hurt you, but just to illustrate the depth of my desperation. She was young, maybe 19, with one of those perfect bodies that only youth and maybe a childhood spent ice skating can give you. I mean, just a perfect body. Jugs you wouldn't believe and an ass like a tortoise shell. Every man's dream, right? But as I sat on the couch being blown by this stunner, I thought, look at the stuff we've made important in our lives. It's all so superficial. What does a perfect body mean?

Does it make her better in bed? Well, in this case, yes. But you see what I'm getting at. Does it make her a better person? Does she have a better heart than my moderately attractive Susan? I doubt it. And I'd never really thought of that before. I Don't know, maybe I'm just growing up a little.

Later, after I'd tossed her about a half a pint of throat yogurt, I found myself thinking, "why do I feel so drained and empty?" It wasn't just her flawless technique or her slutty, shameless hunger, but something else. Some fucking feeling of loss. Why did it feel so incomplete? And then it hit me.

It didn't feel the same because you weren't there, Susan, to watch. Do you know what I mean? Nothing feels the same without you. Jesus, Susan, I'm just going crazy without you. And everything I do just reminds me of you.

Do you remember Carol, that single mom we met in Upper Side last year? Well, she dropped by last week with a pan of lasagna. She said she figured I wasn't eating right without a woman around. I didn't know what she meant till later, but that's not the real story. Anyway, we had a few glasses of wine and the next thing you know we're banging away in our old bedroom. And this tart's a total monster in the sack. She's giving me everything, you know like a real woman does when she's not hung up about her weight or her career and whether the kids can hear us. And all of a sudden she spots that tilting mirror on your grandmother's old vanity. So she puts it on the floor and we straddle it, right, so we can watch ourselves. And it's totally hot, but it makes me sad too. 'Cause I can't help thinking, "Why didn't Susan ever put the mirror on the floor? We've had this old vanity for what, 14 years, and we never used it as a sex aid."

Saturday, your sister drops by with my copy of the restraining order. I mean, Vicky's just a kid and all, but she's got a pretty good head on her shoulders and she's been a real friend to me during this painful time.

She's given me lots of good counsel about you and about women in general. She's pulling for us to get back together, Susan, She really is. So we're drinking in a hot bath and talking about happier times. Here's this teenage girl with the same DNA as you and all I can do is think of how much she looked like you when you were 18. And that just about makes me cry. And then it turns out Vicky's really into the whole anal thing and that gets me to thinking about how many times I pressured you about trying it and how that probably fuelled some of the bitterness between us.

But do you see how even then, when I'm thrusting inside your baby sister's cinnamon ring, all I can do is think of you? It's true, Susan. In your heart you know it. Don't you think we could start over? Just wipe out all the grievances and start fresh? I think we can.

If you feel the same please, please, please let me know, otherwise, can you let me know where the remote control is.

John Doe

[relationship] 10 Signs That It's Time To Break Up

10 Signs That It's Time To Break Up
Sometimes, good things end. That’s just the way life is. Sometimes, bad things continue due to neglect or fear. This ISN’T the way life should be!

I continue to tell people, the problem isn’t that there are too many divorces – there are too many marriages! So many people hook up with partners that are (or become) unhealthy for them, then find that they can’t bring themselves to break it off – sometimes out of fear of being alone, sometimes through convincing by their friends or family, sometimes through concern of how they will look, sometimes through simple neglect, etc.

When should a relationship break up? Simple: when it no longer provides benefit to one or both partners. In other words, if you aren’t getting what you want or need from being with someone, or if you recognize that your partner isn’t getting what they want or need it’s time to move on.

I’ve had some people say to me, “Isn’t that a little selfish – what about the person you’re dumping?” To this I answer, “How can it be good for someone to stay with a person that doesn’t want to be with him or her?” After all, how low does your self-esteem (let alone your self-respect) have to be to want to do this? It is by far much healthier to go about finding the relationship that works for you – that gives you what you need, than to apathetically cling to something that isn’t fulfilling. Life is too short for this, and you deserve better.

So, how do you know when to break off your relationship? Here are 10 signs to watch for. Note that most people encounter one, two or more of these things periodically. However if you’re finding that you experience more than a few consistently – over a longer period, it’s probably time to move on:

10. You no longer look forward to spending time alone with your partner.
You may still have a good sex life (or not!) but actually talking to your partner seems like a chore. If spending time alone with your partner seems like a prison sentence you may be up for a parole.

9. You begin comparing your partner to others.
This is particularly true when other people seem more appealing to you. We all find others – often those we don’t have – attractive. If however, you find that you’re comparing specific traits – a person’s voice, their neatness, they way they carry themselves, etc., against others; especially things your partner can’t change - you should re-evaluate your relationship.

8. You criticize or “micro-manage” your partner
If you’re always concerned that your partner’s socks aren’t exactly right for his pants, or that she wears too much make-up, or that he or she just can’t seem to take their responsibilities seriously, don’t look at them – look at yourself. People that are in love tend to look beyond minor annoyances to the bigger picture. If you’re having trouble doing this you may want to work on your exit plan.

7. You start trying to change your partner
Many people fall in love with people that excite them, but find that this excitement isn’t good for them in the long term. On the other hand, they may find someone “stable” that doesn’t provide enough variety in their relationship. If you find that you’re constantly trying to convert your partner from the person you fell in love with, it may be time to bolt.

6. You re-connect with ex lovers
It’s one thing to send an ex-girlfriend a birthday card. It is entirely another to take her out for dinner and a movie “just to catch up”. The trick here is to be honest about your motivations. If you had the chance to sleep with him or her, would you? Are you looking for approval or an ego-boost from him or her? Have you forgotten why you broke up in the first place?

5. His or her jokes are no longer funny
Of course, you may have heard them 1,000 times, but people in love tend to look beyond this repetitiveness. They see that their partner is being humorous, not how funny something is or isn’t.

4. You’re doing all the giving – or all the getting
Relationships are about mutual benefit. If one partner is benefiting over the other, the relationship isn’t healthy. This doesn’t mean that everything should be exactly balanced. For example, just because one partner spends $50 on a birthday present, that the other should spend exactly that amount. Nor does it mean that both partners should always split a dinner check. If one person pays all the time, and the other doesn’t at least cook a few meals, there is something wrong – and unhealthy about the relationship.

3. You constantly find ways to include others in your activities
Always including others indicates that you’re not looking forward to being alone with your partner. Of course, you need time with your friends, but if you never have private time, or the only time you’re alone is when you’re having sex, perhaps the problem is in the company.

2. Your friends no longer like being around you when you’re with your partner
Your friends don’t have to dislike your partner – perhaps they don’t like what affect your partner has on YOU! Consider that your relationship with your friends is at least as important in the long run as your relationship with your partner. In fact, it may be MORE important as they will see you as you really are, and will be there even if he or she isn’t – IF you treat them right!

1. You no longer feel good about yourself
At first, this seems like a strange warning sign about your relationship, but think about how you felt when you first hooked up with your partner. You felt great – about yourself and your world. If this is now lacking where it was there before, you may want to look at your relationship.

Best regards...
Dr. Neder

Monday, November 21, 2005

[chinese] funny sms

可惜...你是猩猩~我只能在動物園看到你!! 唉..可惜ㄚ!!







由明天開始,市政府決定? M除所有長相醜陋,
有損市容的弱智青年! 你快快收拾東西,出去避避風頭,







我把你的名字寫在每一個角落… 幹,我被警察抓走了!



Friday, November 18, 2005

You are currently using 2298 MB (86%) of your 2665 MB.

You are currently using 2298 MB (86%) of your 2665 MB.

What does that mean? Any guesses? Well, let me disclose the answer to you all. That is how much my storage space used up in my Gmail. As you all might know, the storage space provided by Gmail will increase little by little everyday but somehow I think I overtake the pace of the increasing storage. Haha… well, I think I am not the first one to almost reach full capacity, my friend have been try to max up his Yahoo when Yahoo changes the storage space to 250MB few year back. However as I try to reach 50MB, as well as my friend who is reaching 250MB, we notice that our mailbox tend to slow, everything we try to do is slow, even the page loading is slow. We found out that if your mailbox space increases, the page loading time also increases. If your mail box uses less storage, then the loading time would be faster.

Don't worry, that was last time. Now Yahoo doesn't have this problem. Besides, I can't wait for the new Yahoo Email; you can look at the interface at

If you are wondering, what I keep in my Gmail until it is almost 2.3 GB. Well, mostly it is the forwarded attachment, pictures and video. You might say "Hey, I thought picture and video don't eat up much space." The truth, Gmail will block any attachment that might be virus, namely .scr, .exe, .com, .bat and other executable. And Gmail will block any attachment that is over 10MB.

But try to imagine, I haven't been cleaning my mailbox since April, 7 months which is over 200 days. Then some of my friends all are awfully good to me, they keep on forwarding email to me. (Don't worry, you can still bomb my email, I will keep an eye so it won't exceed the limit)

Thursday, November 17, 2005

Paprika vs. Paprik

Paprika vs. Paprik
In Malaysia, you are sure to discover many type of local dishes, some name as Nasi Paprik (Paprik fried rice) or Nasi Pattaya (Pattaya fried rice).

I used to think that Nasi Paprik is a dish from a place called Paprik, just like Nasi Pattaya which is from southern Thai. This morning, I came to a website that proves me wrong. Maybe most of you who read might already know about it, shame for me as I think it is some sort of important discovery that I spend my time to read more about it online and write this blog.

Paprika is a member of the Capiscum family and is generally fairly mild, available sweet, mild and hot. In short, it is called as Chilli locally or red pepper pods.

Anyway, below is the more detail information on Paprika

Capiscum annuum

Fam Solanaceae

Like all capsicums, the paprika varieties are native to South America. Originally a tropical plant, it can now grow in cooler climates. In Europe Hungary and Spain are the two main centers for growing paprika peppers, though these varieties have evolved into much milder forms than their tropical ancestors. Hungarian paprika is known as stronger as and richer than Spanish paprika, which is quite mild, though through controlled breeding they are becoming more alike. To maintain the stronger taste that consumers expect, some spice companies add cayenne to heat up Hungarian paprika. It is also produced and used in Turkey, Yugoslavia and the United States. The Spanish grades of pimentón are dolce (sweet), agridulce (semi sweet) and picante (hot). It is also graded for quality, depending on the proportion of flesh to seeds and pith. In Hungary there as six classes ranging from Kulonleges (exquisite delicate) to Eros (hot and pungent). Commercial food manufacturers use paprika in cheeses, processed meats, tomato sauces, chili powders and soups. Its main purpose is to add colour. If a food item is coloured red, orange or reddish brown and the label lists 'Natural Colour', it is likely paprika.

Spice Description
Paprika is a fine powder ground from certain varieties of Capsicum annuum which vary in size and shape. They may be small and round (Spain and Morocco) or pointed and cone shaped (Hungary and California). They are larger and milder than chilli peppers. Paprika is produces from peppers ripened to redness, sometimes called 'pimento', the same as used to stuff olives. The powder can vary in colour from bright red to rusty brown.
Bouquet: slightly warm and sweet
Flavour: ranges from sweet and mild to pungent and fiery.
Hotness Scale: 2-6


If you understand Bahasa Malaysia, you can try the recipe below

My Surname is Foo

I think I’m paranoid.

I think I’m gone crazy.

I think I’m losing my mind.

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Reduce the effects of a hangover?

Reduce the effects of a hangover?
Research supports the concept that the major cause of a hangover is simply drinking too much; drinking a large quantity of liquor quickly, as in drinking games, tends to increase the incidence of hangovers, not to mention other negative effects, like alcohol poisoning. So, pacing yourself and limiting yourself to one drink an hour are ways to keep headaches and stomach upset at bay. Try:

* drinking slowly
* sipping rather than gulping
* diluting drinks
* avoiding shots
* alternating alcoholic with non-alcoholic beverages
* eating a substantial meal before drinking

Here are some popular tips on how to do just that:
Chow down. Eat a substantial meal before you go out to a party or bar. Bread products and foods high in protein, like milk and cheese; slow the absorption of alcohol into the bloodstream by coating your stomach and small intestine. Nibbling on finger foods throughout the night can also slow the intoxication process.

Drink for the right reasons. Social occasions and celebrations are pretty good reasons for having a drink. Reducing stress, releasing anger, or trying to prove something to someone are unhealthy motivations for alcohol consumption and may actually quicken the intoxication process and increase nasty side effects.

Hold that line. You're probably familiar with your tolerance of alcoholic beverages (the point when the alcohol you've consumed begins to cause noticeable physical and psychological changes). Crossing your line can easily send you into hangover land the next morning. Challenge yourself to hold that line -- set and state a drink max before you go out -- your body and friends will thank you tomorrow.

Consider the congeners. Congeners are natural by-products of alcohol fermentation. The higher the congener content, the greater the hangover. Gin and vodka have the fewest congeners, while bourbon and red wine claim the most.

Pace yourself. Hangover helpers and healthy drinkers recommend one drink per hour as a guide. This rate gives your body a chance to process the alcohol without sending it special delivery to your head.

Mix, not! Avoid alternating the types of alcohol you consume. If you begin with beer, stick with beer to the end. Starting with Scotch? Stay with Scotch, and so on. For many, downing different kinds of drinks leads to headaches and sick stomachs. It's challenging enough for your body to react to one type of foreign substance, so why give it a harder time with two, three, or four?

Alternate. Start your partying with some food, then have a beer, then down some water or juice, then have another beer (remember to pace yourself along the way). Don't switch off with carbonated drinks -- they can speed up intoxication and heighten hangovers.

Sip or sink. Drink each alcoholic beverage slowly. Remember, your liver can only handle about one ounce of alcohol an hour. Rapid consumption of alcohol via shots, funnels, and drinking games are sure to win you a big hangover.

Have another drink... of water. Alcohol is a diuretic. Drink plenty of water during and after alcohol use to ward off dehydration, headaches, and arches.

Enough said. Cheers to healthy drinking!

[movie] The Exorcism of Emily Rose

1 2 3 4 5 6!
We are the ones who dwell within

I’m Cain

I’m Nero

I’m Belial

I’m Legion

I’m Judas

And I am Lucifer in the flesh!

1 2 3 4 5 6!
I give you tricks and treats!

(Quote from The Exorcism of Emily Rose)

If anyone would like to know what happened with the demons inside Emily did, here you go:
1. Cain committed the first homicide, killing his brother Abel because god accepted Abel's offering over Cain's because Abel offered the best of what he had, Cain offered what he thought God should have.

2. Nero was a Roman Emperor who had his mother killed and set Rome on fire.

3. Referred to as "the Beast" in Revelation, Belial was said to be a prominent fallen angel, second only to Satan. He rides a fiery chariot, leaving scorched earth in his wake. Also fabled to be Satan's emissary to King Solomon.

4. Legion was a demon encountered by Christ in the gospel of Mark, comprised of two-thousand or so spirits. Christ apparently drives Legion out of the man it possessed and into a herd of swine that immediately leapt off a cliff into the sea, but it's all sort of ambiguous.

5. Judas was the one who betrayed Jesus for money, he was said to be possessed by a demon. After realizing what he had done, he hung himself from a tree.

6. Lucifer is the Angel who led the rebellion in heaven. He was god's left hand angel and not satisfied. So he was cast into hell with all the other angels who followed his rebellion. Lucifer is the ruler of hell. Also known as SATAN

An awesome in-depth review about The Exorcism of Emily Rose

Tuesday, November 15, 2005


Invisibility refers to the state of an object which cannot be seen. An object in this state is said to be invisible (literally, "not visible"). The term is usually used as a fantasy/science fiction term, where objects are literally made unseeable by magical or technological means. However, its effects can also be seen in the real world, particularly in physics.

I always wonder what it would be to have an invisible friend. Seems like I am awfully bored and lonely from childhood till now, but this is not what I want to write about.

No, it is not invisible friend. It is about me being invisible.

Ok, I better make it clear. Being invisible isn’t mean that I am stealth, it doesn’t mean that I can be a stealth fighter or able to steal from bank without being detected. So much for Tom Clancy’s Rainbow Six and too much imagination from movie.

Being invisible here mean that no one will take your opinion seriously; just they just ignore you and don’t take you seriously. Maybe I got a soft voice, maybe I am good hiding behind other people but that doesn’t mean that I can be ignored or forgotten.

Sometimes people tend to be a bit selfish, not so considerate and won’t listen to others. There is nothing I can do, not to say that it wouldn’t bothers me. I also got feelings, but nobody really cares about it. It is common in this world, nothing you or me can do about it. But what I can do is, I will try to consider what other will think, try to put myself in their shoes and think.

I wonder why I got such a high EQ sometime and emotionally disturbed sometime. Do you have any idea? Is it that I cheated myself when I say I got a high EQ? or is it that I simply is a moody person?

What is your verdict?

Poem as requested by my friend

I must be some what good at this, some request that I received from my friend and the result is below.

Aw Yeang Tze Ling
, I have been poked by a needle.
Wish I was like a yeang(young) girl.
Where my eye was better than Lao Tze
What lingers me now is my boy friend

, I am not good at introduction
How I wish I was a small kids
Where the audience will think I am still yeang (young)
Compare with K'ung Fu-Tze (Confucius), I am nothing.
But I know that Ling is marine food fishes located in northern European waters.

William Foo
A will is what you need when you are dead.

William, me is what you need when you are alive

Food is what you need to be alive.

William Foo is what you need to be happy.

You may ask, How to be happy?
Let me tell you a secret recipe.

Stick with me more,
Then you will earn more,

More than you ever need,
But you still need me

Cause I am William Foo.
The one who will make you happy

Michelle Neo Wei Khun
You can call me Michelle,
Or you can call me Neo
Just don’t call me Wei! Wei!
Else I will nag you till you ai Khun.

(Ai Khun is a Hokkien word is to represent sleepy)

Michelle is a nice name, if you understand me.
Even Neo from Matrix also admire me

Wei, I am not lying. I got proof
For they make Khun a language in Myanmar

Connie Lau Si Ee
is not a cone.
For Lau is not from LAOS (country).

Si is not sit, its meaning is poem in Chinese.
Ee! So now you know my name.

Hi, I am Connie.
Don’t worry, I am not cunning.

Si-sit, don’t worry,
For I like to eat ice cream in cone till the day I turn into a Lau Ee.

(Lau Ee is old folks in Hokkien)

If you think that I can make a good, simple and funny poem by using your name, email me or leave a comment. I will try my best to make you laugh.

Poem Time (nov 2005)

My name is Hean Tee
Hean Tee is twenty three
Hean Tee like to plant tree
Hean Tee don’t go for tea.

My surname is Foo,
But I am not a Fool,
Don’t think I am a food,
Not like a Tofu.

I am
Not here to harass,
But here to caress,
Please don’t arrest me.

You r the heiress to great wealth,
But now u gives me great health,
So don’t leave me alone to melt,

Inspired by William Foo, which in turn I wrote the line below for him.

WILL is a written document for future use,
William is me, one who can be at your disposal,

Sad is a word u can tell me about,
Happy is a word I will share with u,

Fool, I am not,
William Foo, I will be your friend, if u WILLing,

Below is what he originally wrote for me

My name is Hean Tee
I m twenty three
I’m everyday happy
I can b quite lazy
But I try to act busy
Nowadays I seldom watch TV
When u r free let's go have a tea

Monday, November 14, 2005

ICQ's About me

this is what i wrote in icq's about me.
kinda funny since it was 2000 or 2001, thought it might be good if i put it in blog.

no hobbies, no experience, not educated, not a charming person,
not an interesting person, not a nice person, not a good person,
a bit of neurotic + boring + annoying,
sometimes irritating, sometimes intimidating,
lack of creative, sense of humour,
some people called me a moron, retarded and idiot ........
i m the guy that gives u the creep, freaks u out
girls thinks that i m not romantic/sentimental/tender...

[tech] What is the difference between CCD and CMOS image sensors in a digital camera?

My friend ask me what the question below, since i do some research on it, i decide i should publish it online

What is the difference between CCD and CMOS image sensors in a digital camera?
CCDs use a special manufacturing process to create the ability to transport charge across the chip without distortion. This process leads to very high-quality sensors in terms of fidelity and light sensitivity. CMOS chips, on the other hand, use traditional manufacturing processes to create the chip -- the same processes used to make most microprocessors. Because of the manufacturing differences, there have been some noticeable differences between CCD and CMOS sensors.

* CCD sensors, as mentioned above, create high-quality, low-noise images. CMOS sensors, traditionally, are more susceptible to noise.

* Because each pixel on a CMOS sensor has several transistors located next to it, the light sensitivity of a CMOS chip tends to be lower. Many of the photons hitting the chip hit the transistors instead of the photodiode.

* CMOS traditionally consumes little power. Implementing a sensor in CMOS yields a low-power sensor.

* CCDs use a process that consumes lots of power. CCDs consume as much as 100 times more power than an equivalent CMOS sensor.

* CMOS chips can be fabricated on just about any standard silicon production line, so they tend to be extremely inexpensive compared to CCD sensors.

* CCD sensors have been mass produced for a longer period of time, so they are more mature. They tend to have higher quality and more pixels.

Based on these differences, you can see that CCDs tend to be used in cameras that focus on high-quality images with lots of pixels and excellent light sensitivity. CMOS sensors traditionally have lower quality, lower resolution and lower sensitivity. CMOS sensors are just now improving to the point where they reach near parity with CCD devices in some applications. CMOS cameras are usually less expensive and have great battery life.

For more in-depth technical review, please read
CCD vs. CMOS: Pro Camera Showdown,3973,1156407,00.asp

CMOS vs CCD—it’s the top fight on the digital imaging card.

CMOS versus CCD & what's it all mean?

CereScape is a free community question and answer site , where you can ask a question about absolutely anything, and get an answer from a diverse range of people from around the world!

A general discussion forum is also a big part of the site, where topics as diverse as the great Musk Ox, politics, jokes and current news stories are discussed with others.

It only takes a few seconds to sign up to give yourself an account name, and you can join in straight away!

I joined the site few years back, should be in year 2002 or 2003.
My favorite quotes in brain-fuse (now known as

I know who my girl friend is but she doesn't know who her boyfriend is .....
I don't mind making a new friend, but losing a friend over some stupid arguement won't kill me either.
U can't blame me for being stupid, it is not my fault.
You are a free person and you are free to do whatever your liking is, no one has the power to do control you.

I also don't understand

I could never understand you

1. Understand:
If you understand, say "understand". If you don't understand, say "don't understand". But if you understand and say "don't understand”. How do I understand that you understand? Understand!

2. Wish:
I wish to wish the wish you wish to wish, but if you wish the wish the witch wishes, I won't wish the wish you wish to wish.

3. Sound:
Sounding by sound is a sound method of sounding sounds.

4. See sea
A sailor went to sea to see, what he could see. And all he could see was sea, sea, sea.

5. People
Purple Paper People, Purple Paper People, Purple Paper People

6. Watch the witch
If two witches were watching two watches, which witch would watch which watch?

7. Thought
I thought a thought. But the thought I thought wasn't the thought I thought I thought. If the thought I thought I thought had been the thought I thought, I wouldn't have thought so much.

8. Fellow
Once a fellow met a fellow in a field of beans. Said a fellow to a fellow, "If a fellow asks a fellow, Can a fellow tell a fellow What a fellow means?"

9. Inside outside
Mr Inside went over to see Mr Outside. Mr Inside stood outside and called to Mr Outside inside. Mr Outside answered Mr Inside from inside and Told Mr Inside to come inside. Mr Inside said "NO", and told Mr Outside to come outside. Mr Outside and Mr Inside argued from inside and outside about going outside or coming inside. Finally, Mr Outside coaxed Mr Inside to come inside, then both Mr Outside and Mr Inside went outside to the riverside.

10. Shells

11. Inn
The owner of the inside inn was inside his inside inn with his inside outside his inside inn.

12. Doctor
If one doctor doctors another doctor does the doctor who doctors the doctor doctor the doctor the way the doctor he is doctoring doctors? Or does the doctor doctor the way the doctor who doctors doctors?

"When a doctor falls ill another doctor doctor's the doctor. Does the doctor doctoring the doctor doctor the doctor in his own way or does the doctor doctoring the doctor doctors the doctor in the doctor's way"

13. Sun
We surely shall see the sun shine shortly. Whether the weather be fine, Or whether the weather be not, Whether the weather be cold Or whether the weather be hot, We'll weather the weather Whatever the weather, Whether we like it or not. watch? Whether the weather is hot. Whether the weather is cold. Whether the weather is either or not. It is whether we like it or not.

14. Nice
Nine nice night nurses nursing nicely.

15. Fly
A flea and a fly in a flue Said the fly "Oh what should we do" Said the flea" Let us fly Said the fly” Let us flee" So they flew through a flaw in the flue

16. Tongue twister
If you tell Tom to tell a tongue-twister his tongue will be twisted as tongue-twister twists tongues.

17. S...
Mr. See owned a saw. And Mr. Soar owned a seesaw. Now See's saw sawed Soar's seesaw Before Soar saw See, Which made Soar sore. Had Soar seen See's saw Before See sawed Soar's seesaw; See's saw would not have sawed Soar's seesaw. So See's saw sawed Soar's seesaw. But it was sad to see Soar so sore just because See's saw sawed Soar’s seesaw


A womanizer or philanderer is a man who engages in love affairs with women he cannot or will not marry. The love affairs are typically sexually motivated, with little emotional attachment.

Just before I used that as a title, doesn’t mean that I am a womanizer. At least not yet.

Me and IC office?

This could be what happens to me when I go to register in the Identification Card registration office. LOL.

Officer: what is your religion?
ME: I don’t know
Officer: what u means u doesn’t know?
ME: ok, if u insist, agnostic
Officer: what is agnostic?
ME: u doesn’t know?
Officer: yes, I don’t know
ME: since u don’t know, just leave the religion field empty
Officer: no, the field cannot be empty
ME: then you can put other
Officer: there are no others here
ME: then leave it blank
Officer: it cannot be blank
ME: well, then u put agnostic
Officer: there is no 'agnostic' here
ME: then just leave it blank, I will fill it up when the system support agnostic
Officer: I can't
ME: then I can’t register now. Bye

Me and religion?

Oh yeah, it is the religion time again. Religion should be a sensitive issue here, but hey, it’s my blog. I got the final say in this. If you got any comment or complain, please leave a message in the comments below.

Once I thought I am an Atheist till one day, one of the net friends told me that I should be Agnostic. You may want to know what the differences between the two are. Well most people conclude that I am not a religion man, and I don’t believe in religion.

Some part of it is true, however the more exact explanation is Atheist totally deny the existence of God. This definition includes both those who assert that there are no gods and those who have no beliefs at all regarding the existence of gods.

On the other hand, Agnostic believe that there are no knowledge of gods and therefore concludes there are no reasons to believe in them or not to believe in them. An agnostic follows this credo and differs from the atheist who has developed an active belief that there are no gods. When it comes to the question of existence of deities, an agnostic will respond: I just don't know.

So when next time, anyone of you ask me what is my religion, I would say “ I don’t know.” Hehe, hope that answer your question.

So now, the one reading this would understand what is my belief.

Agnosticism and Atheism

Agnosticism is the philosophical view that the truth values of certain claims—particularly theological claims regarding the existence of God, gods, or deities—are unknown, inherently unknowable, or incoherent, and therefore, (some agnostics may go as far to say) irrelevant to life. The term and the related agnostic were coined by Thomas Henry Huxley in 1869, and are also used to describe those who are unconvinced or noncommittal about the existence of deities as well as other matters of religion. The word agnostic comes from the Greek a (without) and gnosis (knowledge). Agnosticism, focusing on what can be known, is an epistemological position (dealing with the nature and limits of human knowledge); while atheism and theism are ontological positions (a branch of metaphysics that deals with what types of entities exist). Agnosticism is not to be confused with a view specifically opposing the doctrine of gnosis and Gnosticism—these are religious concepts that are not generally related to agnosticism.

Agnosticism is distinct from strong atheism (also called positive atheism), which denies the existence of any deities. However, the more general variety of atheism, weak atheism (also called negative atheism, and sometimes neutral atheism), professes only a lack of belief in a god or gods, which is not equivalent to but is compatible with agnosticism.

Agnostics may claim that it isn't possible to have absolute or certain spiritual knowledge or, alternatively, that while certainty may be possible, they personally have no such knowledge. Agnosticism in both cases involves some form of skepticism towards religious statements.

Atheism, in its broadest sense, is characterized by an absence of belief in the existence of god(s), thus contrasting with theism. This definition includes both those who assert that there are no gods and those who have no beliefs at all regarding the existence of gods. However, narrower definitions often only qualify the former as atheism, the latter falling under the more general (but rarely used) term nontheism.

Although atheists often share common concerns regarding evidence and the scientific method of investigation and a large number are skeptics or humanists, there is no single ideology that all atheists share. Additionally, many atheists are not entirely without religion; there are atheists who are religious or spiritual despite their lack of belief in god(s) — though many of these would not describe themselves as atheists.

Friday, November 11, 2005

Just maybe

Just maybe
Maybe u r a bombshell
Maybe u r babelicious
Maybe u r cunning
Maybe u r damn pretty
Maybe u r extravagant
Maybe u r friendly
Maybe u r gorgeous
Maybe u r helpful
Maybe u r intelligent
Maybe u r jovial
Maybe u r killing me with your behavior
Maybe u r La Vie En Rose
Maybe u r my type of girl
Maybe u r naughty
Maybe u r open minded
Maybe u r party girl
Maybe u r Q (cute
Maybe u r resentful
Maybe u r sweet
Maybe u r torture queen
Maybe u r useful
Maybe u r venomous
Maybe u r wonderful
Maybe u r xerox (copy cat)
Maybe u r yummy
Maybe u r zero (nothing)

[tech] Spyware from Sony

Spyware from Sony
In order to fight piracy, Sony BMG turns to spyware?

CA targets Sony DRM as spyware

Don’t they realize that customer always right? And if I don’t like your product I can turn against you and support your competitor? Here, Sony doesn’t seem to respect the consumer, and then what can the consumer do?

Spyware spat makes small print a big issue

Well, seems like the consumer can do nothing. What has been label as spyware can sue the anti spyware company for being labeled as spyware. Yet it could be another challenge for the anti spyware and internet user.

Talking about challenge, the consumer should be aware of this
Unsecured Wi-Fi could become a crime

Now one must be careful and anonymous surfing will be history. (Until the rule is approve by the parliament.)

[tech] Battle of the giants

Battle of the giants
So much for the Intel side logo on virtually every computer we used in the past 4 or 5 year, in a recent ZDnet’s blog titled “Intel's Otellini in the hot seat as AMD gains share”

It’s not to say that this means the end of Intel and the triumph of AMD, even Microsoft can try bounce back after realizing the threat of Google and Yahoo.

Oh, yeah. The war is on.
Leaked Documents from Bill Gates and Ray Ozzie

Google, Microsoft and Yahoo begin war on features

What do we as internet user get in return? War is usually bad, both for the winner and loser. But here, we as internet user will get a more better choice and a myriad of services provided, some free and some for a fee.

The Five Absolute Worst Foods You Can Eat

The Five Absolute Worst Foods You Can Eat
By Dr. Joseph Mercola with Rachael Droege

There are no "bad" foods, right? Only food you should eat in moderation? Well, not really. The following foods are so bad for your body that I really can't see any reason to eat them. Not only do they have zero nutritional value, but they also give your body a healthy dose of toxins, which should make the idea of eating them really hard to swallow.

Doughnuts are fried, full of sugar and white flour and most all varieties contain trans fat. Store-bought doughnuts are made up of about 35 percent to 40 percent trans fat.

An average doughnut will give you about 200 to 300 calories, mostly from sugar, and few other nutrients.

It's too bad that Americans view doughnuts as a breakfast food as, nutritionally speaking, eating a doughnut is one of the worst ways to start off your day. It will throw off your blood sugar and won't stay with you so you'll be hungry again soon. You are better off eating no breakfast at all, or better yet grabbing a quick glass of Whey Healthier.

One can of soda has about 10 teaspoons of sugar, 150 calories, 30 to 55 mg of caffeine, and is loaded with artificial food colors and sulphites. I can't think of any good reason to ever have it. The diet varieties are also problematic as they are filled with harmful artificial sweeteners like aspartame.

Studies have linked soda to osteoporosis, obesity, tooth decay and heart disease, yet the average American drinks an estimated 56 gallons of soft drinks each year. Plus, drinking all that sugar will likely suppress your appetite for healthy foods, which pave the way for nutrient deficiencies.

Soft drink consumption among children has almost doubled in the United States over the last decade, which is not surprising considering that most school hallways are lined with soda-filled vending machines.

Schools often make marketing deals with leading soft drink companies such as Coca-Cola from which they receive commissions--based on a percentage of sales at each school--and sometimes a lump-sum payment, in exchange for their students' health. School vending machines can increase the consumption of sweetened beverages by up to 50 or more cans of soda per student per year.

If you routinely drink soda--regular or diet--eliminating it from your diet is one of the simplest and most profound health improvements you can make.

French Fries (and Nearly All Commercially Fried Foods)
Potatoes are bad enough when consumed in their raw state, as their simple sugars are rapidly converted to glucose that raises insulin levels and can devastate your health. But when they are cooked in trans fat at high temperatures, all sorts of interesting and very unpleasant things occur.

Anything that is fried, even vegetables, has the issue of trans fat and the potent cancer-causing substance acrylamide.

Foods that are fried in vegetable oils like canola, soybean, safflower, corn, and other seed and nut oils are particularly problematic. These polyunsaturated fats easily become rancid when exposed to oxygen and produce large amounts of damaging free radicals in the body. They are also very susceptible to heat-induced damage from cooking. What is not commonly known is that these oils can actually cause aging, clotting, inflammation, cancer and weight gain. You can read the article "Secrets of the Edible Oil Industry" for more information.

It is theoretically possible to create a more "healthy" French fry if you cook it in a healthy fat like virgin coconut oil. Due to its high saturated fat content, coconut oil is extremely stable and is not damaged by the high temperatures of cooking. This is why coconut oil should be the only oil you use to cook with.

I am fond of telling patients that one French fry is worse for your health than one cigarette, so you may want to consider this before you order your next 'Biggie' order.

Most commercial chips, and this includes corn chips, potato chips, tortilla chips, you name it, are high in trans fat. Fortunately, some companies have caught on to the recent media blitz about the dangers of trans fat and have started to produce chips without trans fat.

However, the high temperatures used to cook them will potentially cause the formation of carcinogenic substances like acrylamide, and this risk remains even if the trans fat is removed.

Fried Non-Fish Seafood
This category represents the culmination of non-healthy aspects of food. Fried shrimp, clams, oysters, lobsters, and so on have all the issues of trans fat and acrylamide mentioned above, plus an added risk of mercury.

Seafood is loaded with toxic mercury and shellfish like shrimp and lobsters can be contaminated with parasites and resistant viruses that may not even be killed with high heat. These creatures, considered scavenger animals, consume foods that may be harmful for you.

Eating these foods gives you a quadruple dose of toxins--trans fat, acrylamide, mercury and possibly parasites or viruses--with every bite.

If you have a taste for seafood, there's an easy solution. It's best to avoid your local fish fry and try the only fish I now eat--the delicious wild red Alaskan salmon that was proven through independent lab testing to be free of harmful levels of mercury and other contaminants.